Last monday, Nov.20th. My big Brother Stephen. He died in a bad car accident, really bad. However bad it was, Thank God it was only one. But then again why thank a god that did something so terrible to my family to anyones family. Why does he create death and sorrow. I wish I could protest against god, protest like to stop somethign and that is to stop him from killing people. Ya, that 18 year old killed him. But really if there is a god and blah blah then why this. I am just so high, cause i want to forget and stop remembering this. Just to make it go away. go away. I have this anger inside of me and yet i have confusion of why it would happen. I dont even know the whole story. I need to paint it makes me stop thinking. I just miss my big brother.